---listen to my latest release
intermittent reward, persuasive design techniques
rule by caprice
but best believe, won’t get high off my own supply of eye-wool
gold doesn’t trickle down mountains
best believe, never getting gold fleeced
we used to be best friends
B. effin F.’s, my blood
then you went and showed some skinner
norepinephrine in my blood
whoever knew confidence would so evanescent?
thrown me off the pen
broke me out the dream
wake me up in pysch
bit by bit
you reduce me to tear me a new want
ars replica, i’m so done with these double sous sens
i just wanna say it to you frank
i act aggrieved
cos i can’t derive enjoyment from candids
even if i admit i’m happy here
am i in hell, emic?
comment on the image of me in your POV
i’m a myth, steering us no ship
these are my theses of us
you seem relieved
that i can recall the before forms at all---

---my intention is for you to mishear this
*that’s enough film recording for one’s life*
death drive: take the reel
don’t wanna deprive you of your nosedive
you’re oh so faux-deep
pensive images reaping passive income while you sleep
you’re so outgoing, you ledge
does a convict’s mirror have an edge to leap from?
death drive, take the reel
a four-by-four-track beats the wheel
online, phish taping the fall is the highlight
don’t want you missing out on your real life
no cap, it all feels short changed
your voice owes outstanding debts to your estranged body
thumbs so sore from all the typing
you don’t fit into this edit; you don’t become yourself,
wannabe nobody, you wannabe nobody, you’ll write yourself to
death drive, take the real
bored by four-by-four-tracks, square, the wheel
cut out and demark the fall for a cloud five
stats, hand us the reel knife
you misheard this
*my deepest core isn’t hurt and isn’t torn again*
you misheard this
*loving your bio, feeling great, surfing the cloud, free domain*---

---tryna figure it out?
it doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *inextricable enmeshment in the para-situation* allows
by all means keep thinking about it
doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *toxic but prosocial oral fixation* allows
you don’t know what it’s like to feel this kind of pain
say you’re down and out, it’s in authentic and anyway
screensavers never muff the low blue flame
mercy on your face, let’s just talk about the weather
tryna figure it out?
it doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *open systemic sense of closure* allows
by all means keep thinking about it
doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *je ne sais qoui, blessure* allows
always knew ahead of time your hatred of my reign
your hand-me-down doubts, i preordained it and anyway
teenagers always have a flouting phase
little did you know, child, yours was orchestrated
reckon with your *desire*
come to terms with your *desire*
redefine what it is that you *desire*
because i know who it is that you *desire*
please don’t give up on your *desire*
oppositional *desire*
double-crossed *desire*
you don’t know what it is you *desire*
tryna figure it out?
it doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *extra piece of an incomplete puzzle* allows
by all means keep thinking about it
doesnt all fit together
just make as good a sense of it as your *limited capacity for uninterrupted thought* allows
who knew that city life could lead to such estrangements?
just to let you go, for me, it was never a number’s game, but
quantity time only knows so far
when the total clocks in circulation is capped in advance---